The mark of the CatBeen wondering, how many of you out there live in regret and despair? Or perhaps likewise living among humanity existing like a thin air? Or find yourself unable to prove your worthiness to someone?
10 Years ago i had the same feeling...
Feeling frustrated after came back from school, i find myself struggling under the hot sun feeling humiliated and shame. I had quarrels once more, this time it brings my nerve more than the latter. It was rather pointless at those age, where we used to bring up small matters as topics. However no matter how pointless it would get, the ego-side of me never gives up. I would debate on and on over something, only to find myself lying more and more each time. The result, i am pretty much hated by anyone.
As time of loneliness strucks, i would find myself enjoying the holidays all by myself. Sometimes lucky, i get to be with my families, otherwise i would end up alone all day long. Perhaps it has been fated, in rather one lonely night, i was hanging around the garden outside my house. There came this small lil' creature hanging around the corner. Well for your info it looks somewhat like this....

Hideous lil' thing ain't it. There's more to it, as i began to eye-to-eye with the creature, it stares back at me. ...That lasted more than 5 seconds.... Then i tried to say "hi". Of course silly old me would know it wouldn't reply back. Thus i tried to "meow" at it. To my suprise it reacts slightly by moving its ears. We continued to stares at each other...In the end, the lil' thing came to me and curled its tail around me. At that moment, i would feel a sense of happiness and harmony, that such small creature are able to appreciate being with me. I tried to care it, although clueless of what it actually needs, i tried milk , as seen on tv... Well fortunately it does drinks it and somewhat its acting more friendly than before. I guess i found a new hobby ...although i hate naming it yet...its a stray thing after all.
Few days passed, as i often rush back from school to find my new friend. To my surprise on one fine day...i couldn't find the cat in my house. I went out along the roads trying to search where it had gone to. I was feeling nervous unable to find it. Hours of search resulted in nothing...perhaps i've seen this coming. Feeling down, i therefore clarified its gone. For what reason i wouldn't know till today, but it has emblemed itself into me. The feelings of lost still floats within me. I didn't regret with that little meeting we had. Perhaps its destinied after all, that i will be alone longer at these times. But i shall never forget my precious "friends" . The camaderie memories we had shall not be forgotten. . . . somehow later on i recalled i should've pulled a few whiskers....